my clock was at [1111] when i loaded this page. wow.

so it's the 7th month, and hi hungry ghosts~ and all of them must be very happy because there's like 2 months of the festival this year, because of some lunar calendar patterns. i don't really know how to explain it, but yeah, in gist, hungry ghost festival is 2 months this year.

i used to be quite scared of the idea of ghosts and rituals and etc, but now, i probably have a more open minded view to it. if there are ghosts, then hi~ welcome to the mortal world, and i know you have your business, so let's just live in harmony. haha. well, i'm just, used to the idea of ghosts and spiritual beings hanging around, and i think they are really, really less frightening than cold blooded murderers, rapists, robbers and etc.

choy. touch wood. why am i touching on such crap.



recent events and conversations have set me to wonder whether blogging is the best way to "vent", because to me, blogging was an avenue for venting, and i could probably go "XXXX, YOU SUCK!!" that kinda of stuff; and perhaps hope that XXX will really read it. but now, i dunnoe. being forthcoming and straightforward in the public arena may not be the best choice of anger management. but unless i find a better way to vent, perhaps blogs will be my choice for the time being. it's like some people like to play piano and etc to vent, some like to...i dunnoe, break stuff to vent; but for me, typing on a keyboard makes me feel a lot better, and seeing it on a www page makes me feel even better. then i'll cry and sleep and the day will be much much better.

i like staring at the screen a lot, because i like stoning, and because sometimes i'm actually staring at my wmp or itunes, and then i'll be fleeting in and out of thoughts while listening to my usual songlist. makes me feel connected with myself, and perhaps its my best form of relaxation after a day of mayhem.


so to my existent(those who tag) and non-existent(haha. i'm not perplexed at you not tagging though): perhaps i'll blog less in the future. perhaps more. i dunnoe. all i know is that this is something that has accompanied me in my growing years, and will serve as a rememberance of the people i've met, the things i've done, and the thoughts i used to have. we are always afraid to Remember, so do i, but sometimes in one's life, probably we would embark of a self-discovery journey, and this little blog may help.


i hope. =)

so maybe now i'll like to ink it and say that im no smelly, and that a pepsi tab or anything "orbit" will not do the job; getit diaperhead's nanny? *winks*